Fortunately, when I was a 300 pound woman years ago I didn’t get very cold. It’s a good thing too, as I didn’t own a coat. (We did live in Florida.) I didn’t own a coat for two simple reasons:
1) They were really expensive in size 28 and I didn’t want to spend the money since I was “losing weight” and,
2) I was embarrassed to tell John I needed a coat that was big enough to fit the star linebacker at Florida State.
You see, once I started making all my clothes except for T-shirts, I never told John what size I wore. All he knew was that it took a lot of fabric to make a jumper big enough for me, and those jumpers were a pain to iron. So by telling him I would like a coat would also be telling him what size I wore. Ridiculous, I know. But that’s how warped my thinking was back then!
So winter after winter, I suffered along without a coat. I had some men’s fleeces, and a few sweaters I had found at yard sales that got me by during the northern Florida winter. I remember many times, when the temperature dipped into the 40′s, and my friends would ask me, “Diane, aren’t you cold?”
“No,” I’d answer. “I’m comfortable!” I smiled when I said it but inside myself I thought, “Yes, thank you I’m freezing out here, but I don’t want you to know why I don’t have a coat.” Every time I said those words a piece of my heart got sadder and sadder. I felt sorry for myself. I didn’t even have a coat that fit me. I’d watch enviously when a friend accepted her husband’s coat when she was caught outside without one. She’d gracefully slip her arms in the sleeves and sit comfortable and warm. I’d look at her sitting with the coat swimming on her and think, “I want that to be me. Why can’t that be me?” But John’s coat wouldn’t have gone up and over my shoulder blade, much less across my wide back.
Years passed by with me continually reassuring everyone who asked, “No thanks – I’m not cold at all.”
When I finally began losing weight one of the happiest purchases I made was that of a coat. The first coat I bought was an XL, and I was so proud to wear it. It was brown corduroy with a cute plaid lining. (I know it sounds gross, but in its day!) I wore that coat until it started swimming on me. Fortunately spring and summer came quickly, and by that next winter I was able to buy a real wool coat.
I was so happy to walk into Burlington Coat Factor and peruse the rows and rows of wool coats. I knew exactly what I wanted, and found it. I even remember when I tried on “the coat” that a woman standing near me looked at me and said, “That coat looks darling on you.” I wanted to hug her but refrained. Me? Wearing something darling? Oh joy! I bought that coat without even looking at the price tag. (It was on sale though!)
I still have that coat and wore it yesterday. It probably is a tad big on me now, but I still love it. And every time I wear it I always remember all the times I lied and told my friends, “Thanks for asking, but I’m not cold.” Here’s a picture of me in the happy coat!
Are there any articles of clothing that you can’t wait to purchase? Or any article of clothing you’ve recently purchased and are so glad you have? Diane