I’ll answer that question for myself right now. Me. I was, and still can be the root of my personal weight struggles.
Honestly though – when I was 305 pounds and looking like this:
I had a hard time with the “root” of my weight issues. If anyone had asked me why I was having a hard time losing weight, I probably would have come up with about 326 excuses. They might have looked something like this:
Now I know that’s not really 326 excuses, but they were the ones that rolled easiest off my tongue when people “gently inquired” as to how I was doing on losing weight. As a side note, I’m still surprised how many people thought it would be okay to ask me about whether or not I was dieting or planning on dieting.
Somewhere deep in my heart I knew that it wasn’t okay to weigh this much, and that no amount of wishing and no number of excuses was going to make good things happen for me. Even though I knew what the root of my problem was, I found it easier to bury it under excuses than having to dig it up and look at it.
The brief times of success I had while on Weight Watchers were when I did acknowledge that I was my own problem. The 10 pounds I lost during that time were well-earned, but as soon as I stopped focusing on me, and what I needed to change, I gained the weight back and quit.
The longer I was obese, the more I tried to blame everything and everyone else for my problems. When faced with the reality of increasing health problems and looking like a balloon for the rest of my life – I finally acknowledged that the root problem was me. That acknowledgement wasn’t easy for me, because it was like saying I was failing.
In reality, I was failing myself. I had given up for a lot of years, and needed to get back to caring about myself and doing the right things for my health.
Over the 14 months that it took me to lose all that weight, I had times when I did try and blame outside circumstances for my weight. But I learned to recognize those thoughts, and remind myself that only I had the ability to stop eating so much. Only I had the capability to commit to working out. And no one but me was responsible for my weight.
I don’t know if I was alone in having difficulty taking the responsibility for my size. If you’ve ever had to struggle with that, I’d encourage you that just thinking about why you have weight struggles and owning up to bad habits or behaviors you have is a lifelong process. I still do it. On days when I don’t feel like working out, I remind myself that only I have the ability to walk out the door and exercise. No one can help me or “make” me do it. Just me.
Did you have to go through this kind of process to get on the right track? Was it hard? Diane